Surveys are lame.

Here's another one:

1) Who is the last person you high-fived? shit, i don’t know. darcy?

2) If you were drafted into a war, would you survive? for a while

3) Do you sleep with the TV on? no, it fucks me up. i like complete darkness and mostly quietness when i sleep.

4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton? yup. out of the carton, out of the gallon container, out of the cow. no, that’s gross.

5) Have you ever won a spelling bee? only the ones when i have in my head when i spell-check my papers and find no spelling errors.

6) Have you ever been stung by a bee? many times. different angry bees though.

7) How fast can you type? medium average.

8) Are you afraid of the dark? i’m afraid of things in the dark but not the dark itself. like stuff that wants to eat me or stab me while i sleep sometimes.

9) Eye color? yes.

11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower? oh, about a month ago while the roommates were on vacation.

12) Do you knock on wood? for luck? just doors and luckily, it pisses people off.

13) Are you drinking anything right now? i wish. water rules.

14) Favorite animal? i like squirrels now. and kitties 4eva.

15) Can you hoola hoop? i assume i can still do that.

16) Are you good at keeping secrets? yes, survey, i am.

17) What do you want for Christmas? i love stupid shit. stupid nonsensical crap that makes you wonder why they would ever make something so ridiculous. and a kitty.

18) Favorite cereal? um, golden grahams are good. cracklin’ oat bran. raisin bran. bran o’ bran. bran wheats. branchocula. ew.

19) Do you talk in your sleep? i have done it but very few times. though i’ve screamed in my sleep twice.

21) Have you ever flown a kite? yes, long long ago.

23) How many people are on your contact list of your cell? enough.

24) Have you asked for a pony? yeah, and i got a stupid horse instead. serious.

26) Can you juggle? nope. well, two things. not three. does that count?

28) How are you feeling today? tired. stupid radon.

29) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school? never.

30) What are you looking forward to? i like wearing pants and sweaters. i love the fall. i’m moving to chicago. it’s exciting.

31) Have you ever crawled through a window? probably but i’m not good at that stuff so i probably scraped myself up pretty bad.

32) Have you ever eaten dog food? yes. not recommended.

33) Movie you can quote every line for line? labyrinth.

34) Favorite fast food breakfast? um, i guess if i had to choose it’d be the ham croissantwich at burget king with the hash rounds. memories of high school.

35) Favorite lunch: pizza’s good always. sandwiches are great too. burgers at mickey’s MAC are great. and masala’s lunch buffet is a-ok.

35) What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator? i just got a little fridge to put in the basement and i can honestly say that it only contains 7-up and seagrams right now = dinner. but, 3 things that could always be in my fridge-fridge would be miracle whip, ketchup, & usually orange juice. these don’t taste good together though.

36) Any cool scars? not cool. boring. i have 4-5 little ones. mostly falling down or getting burned by stuff.

37) Are you single or taken, or is it just confusing? “taken”

38) What do you do when no one is watching? dance, pick my nose. together.

39) Do you like dancing? hey! i do!

40) Who did you last talk to on the phone? scotto.

41) Where was the last place you ate? on my bed. i ate a gross spinach salad with feta that was probably old. delicious, huh?

42) What is the last movie watched? i’ve been watching SO SO many movies lately because i’ve been working on an artsy project and want to half pay attention to something while i’m working. so, yesterday and today i watched: the hours, keeping the faith, garden state, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (twice), high fidelity, the matrix, and romy & michele’s. i think i’m gonna get back to projecto now and watch almost famous and/or the jerk.

43) What song did you hear last? werewolf by cat power

44) Would you ever date anyone on your myspace friends list? never! well, except for that guy with the scarves on his head or that dreamy lead singer of harlan pepper. but, no one else!

stupid adventureland.

okay, okay...all in all, it was really fun but darcy & i had plans, dammit. we were legal this time and were all excited about having some beers and going on rides. i guess we should have known better once they started handing out these buttons at the front gate.


apparently we chose to go adventureland ourselves on a booze-free weekend. so unbelievably lame. and then it was such a nice sunshiny day that it made us want beers even more. i seriously considered walking to a convenience store and buying some but somehow we managed to enjoy ourselves...only after bitching about it for at least a solid two and a half hours.

anyhooptie, for nostalgia's sake we donned phatty pants and said "dude" a lot. and darcy ate meat.




there were a bunch on new rides. my old favorites are still the Sky Lift (shut up, i like it), the Tornado (which is one of the top 10 wooden coasters in the US...i just learned this recently. woot.), and the newer Outlaw coaster. maybe i'm just getting old but the Dragon roller coaster is, to be impressively articulate, a suckfest. the two loops are fun but the rest of the ride is rather painful and jerky. i came away with a headache. stupid Dragon. snarl.

the new rides that i enjoyed were this weird wheel-shaped ride called the Sidewinder that spins around and swings out over the people in line (bad ride to be sick on) and gives you that googily stomache feeling like the Galleon but more intense. also, a ride called the Underground was really entertaining because it was so stupid and involved a fog machine, unnecessary water spraying, and strobe lights. i enjoyed it way too much.

but the one i liked the most was the Space Shot which is described on the a-land website as: Feel the force of four and one half G's as you're hurled 200 feet into the sky in less than two seconds, and then plunge back to earth as the Space Shot thrusts you down into an all-out free fall as fast as gravity can pull you.

so, yeah, i personally re-name this ride the Orgazmo and that's all I'll say about that.

we went on some water rides too but managed to stay relatively dry. the weirdest part of the day came when we went on the Silly Silo. it was something i always liked as a kid but for some reason this time it just fucked darcy & i up. i guess spinning around so fast that you stick to the wall just doesn't work for me anymore. we didn't get sick or anything we just felt like we needed to sit down and wonder what we just did to our brains. then, we laughed like crazy people for longer than we should have and were glad that we weren't able to drink alcohol because that ride would have made us pass out or at the very least very ill.

well, that's the shorter version of the day. we didn't go to any of the souvenir shops or get those olden day photos taken of ourselves. we did eat everything on the oink list and i ate a tenderloin too (i never eat those) and darcy had a gyro. we had chocolate shakes too. there's something about adventureland that makes you eat. it's sick. no funnel cakes though. good for us...but then, they don't have strawberry topping and whipped cream anymore. what's the point then, eh?

i took pictures on a disposable camera so i'll probably come back and post some pics once i finish the roll and get 'em developed. happy happy.

Holy roller coasters!

Preparing myself for mega excitement this Saturday at Iowa's biggest amusement park...



I'm assuming a lot of time will actually be spent here...



Let the gluttony begin...

• Oink.

• Oink.

• Oink.

New addition this year:

• Oink.

This may or may not be good.
But it should be entertaining.

Pictures will be taken.
Pictures will be posted.
Pictures should be embarrassing.

it's a damn shame what happened to jem after the holograms.

what's with the partially robotic cat? that's fucked up.

yeah, this is old news but yay iowa, walmart, george lucas' suck-on-it sex candy, and decent people everywhere.

• gimme some jar jar

So, that's what I'm supposed to look like in cartoon form. There's something wrong with my hand though. Or I'm modeling that watch. No, there's something wrong with my hand. It looks like it should be holding something...probably a Skeleton Pincher Functional Claw Blade Spear like

• this.

(Buy it for me. I need it.)

another frickin' survey? jesus. don't you have anything better to do...or to blog about?

apparently not.


[50 Have You Evers?]

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?
i hope so.

2. Slept in a different bed?
no, i’ve taped my mattress to myself to prevent this from ever occurring. wait, actually i have.

3. Made out in a movie theatre?
nope.

4. Made out in the forest?
the forest? yes, with ticks.

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
yes, actually. we didn’t do nuthin. shoot.

7. Slept naked?
usually do.

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
yup.

9. Gone over the speed limit?
never! it’s wrong.

10. Been arrested?
not yet

11. Drove a car?
i believe so, yes.

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
i dance everywhere.

13. Painted your room?
i did when i lived with my parents.

14. Been dumped?
yup.

15. Stole money from friend?
nope.

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
yes. they had candy.

17. Been in a fist fight?
almost.

18. Snuck out of your house?
i don’t need to do it anymore (since i’m 28 & live alone) but i still do.

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
yes indeedy.

20. Gotten a hickey?
yes. no likey hickeys.

21. Made out with a stranger?
define stranger.

22. Left your house without telling your parents?
i try not to tell them anymore. they’re not as interested since i haven’t lived at their home for more than a decade.

23. Chopped down a tree?
for what?

24. Ditched school to do something more fun?
sleep is fun.

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?
yes. many times.

26. Seen someone die?
no. well, on tv.

27. Been on a plane?
several times...to europe, japan, south korea, jeju, florida....(yes, florida)

28. Kissed a picture?
i’m constantly kissing pictures...of myself or richard dean anderson.

29. Slept in until 3?
rarely.

30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
i miss.

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
of course. once the weather cooperates i will do that some more.

32. Made a snow angel?
do what?

33. Played dress up?
still do. i’m lame.

34. Cheated while playing a game?
yes, i have. don’t let me mix your drink on game night. it’s hard to beat me in scrabble when you’re all roofied up.

35. Been lonely?
of course.

36. Fallen asleep at work/school?
i don’t fall asleep but i come so very very close.

37. Been to a club?
once, i went to a seal clubbing club. but we realized that we lived in iowa (where there are no seals) and we didn’t have any clubs (for clubbing) and that i was the only person there and that i made the whole thing up while i was in line at subway. i ordered a cookie. oatmeal raisin. just kidding. that’s gross. what was the question? no, i live in iowa.

38. Felt an earthquake?
i ordered a brownie earthquake from dairy queen. it felt cold. like my mother’s touch. just kidding. it had hot fudge on it so it was warmish.

39. Touched a snake?
i try not to. they have fangs and death for me that i do not like.

40. Ran a red light?
yup. i ran into one too. it hurt...inside.

41. Been suspended from school?
not that i know of.

42. Had detention?
self-imposed detention.

43. Been in a car accident?
uh, i’ve been in 5, i think. i was always a passenger though.

44. Hated the way you look?
in lycra biking shorts. why do i keep wearing them?

45. Witnessed a crime?
only the ones i’ve committed.

46. Been lost?
in your eyes.

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
what’s the opposite side of the middle?

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
that is a weird question.

49. Cried yourself to sleep?
no, not to sleep. before bed...like a snack.

50. Sang karaoke?
affirmative.

i'm sorry.

And the survey says...

Okay, so I received some surveys from a friend via myspace and decided to finally revisit my blogitty here and to post my answers to it. It's really not too exciting honestly but I figure it may entice me to get my act together and start actively posting on here. And maybe it would inspire you to at least fill out a survey or two & email it to me...that'd be happy. (You should.)

[Survey Number #1]

***the ABC’s in 3’s Survey***

A- Available? Not really.
A - Age: twenty-8.
A- Annoyance: waking me up (in particular drunks being loud outside my building after bar close)

B - Best Friends? darcy, ellen, & john.
B - Bar: deadwood, gabes
B - Birthday? octobre 27

C - Crush: a kid who lives in chicago
C - Car: a focus-y in red
C - Cat: my favorite, my love was always oreo, my cat growing up

D - Dead Pets Name: oreo, egon
D - Dad's Name: donald gene
D - Dog: i had a black lab named chip. he was nuts. i always wanted a shar-pei though. oh, wrinkly.

E - Easiest person to talk to: darcy
E - Eggs: what? um, eggs benedict is good sometimes.
E - Email: the ones i use. i have 3, no, 4.

F - Favorite Color(s): blue-violet
F - Food: pizza (from the sanctuary with fresh garlic, red onions, spinach, tomato, & feta)
F - Foreign Slang: dunno.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: neither. unless the worms are soury.
G - God: they’re all great.
G- Good Time: wherever happiness is

H - Hair Color: dark brown & reddish currently
H - Height: 5'2"
H - Happy: periodically throughout the day

I - Ice Cream: haagen daaz: chocolate chip cookie dough
I - Instrument: acoustic guitar
I - Idol: uh, billy idol?

J - Jewelry: I’m fond of it but only cheap stuff that i won’t be too sad if i lose...but i also like vintage stuff too.
J - Job: i hear those are good for moneys. i should get one.
J - Jokes: spur of the moment jokes that turn out to not be funny at all later but for some reason are hilarious at the time

K - Karaoke: i love karaoke. i feel badly for those who hear me do it.
K - Karma: is nice.
K - Kiss or a hug: both.

L - Longest Car Ride: i usually greyhound it on long trips. longest trip? about 22 hours.
L - Laughing: is my favorite thing.
L- last person you spoke to on the phone: darcy

M - Milk Flavor: chocolate. once i tried root beer flavored milk at a convenience store. do not try this. it is not good.
M - Mother's Name: Kazuko
M - Movie Last Watched: venus beauty institite. ooh la la.

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Northern or Southern: a little of each.
N - Name: karen dee

O One Wish? happy happy lots lots
O - One Phobia? spiders want me dead
O - Otter Pop? i am not.

P - Parents: imperative to my existance. my mom rules.
P- Part of your appearance that you like best: i am best when i am giggling and happy.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: same as above

Q - Quote: my senior yearbook quote which doesn’t make any sense as a senior yearbook quote.
Q - Question for the next person: why’d we meet? was it good for you too?
Q - Quick or Slow? depends on what i’m doing.

R - Reason to smile: all things funny and good
R - Reality TV Show: i don’t know
R - Right or Left: right-handed

S - Song Last Heard: “John, I’m Only Dancing” by David Bowie
S - Season: i like the Fall. in particular sept/oct. but, i like warm weather too.
S - Sex/gender: i am girl. i date boys.

T - Time you woke up: 10:30 am
T - Time Now: 1:28 a.m.
T - Time for bed: between 1-2 am.

U - Unknown Fact about me: i glow in the dark. also, i've always wanted to collect vintage porcelain cats with the jewel eyes but never ever started that collection.
U - Unicorns? are pointy. and delicious.
U - Umbrella - i don’t use them ever.

V - Vegetable you hate: all peppers, artichoke, all olives, celery
V- Vegetable you love: onions, garlic, spinach, potatoes, corn, green beans
V - Vampire movie: The Lost Boys (of course)

W- Worst Habits: procrastination, selective amnesia.
W- What do you wanna be when you grow up: a grown-up probably.
W- Where are you traveling to next? chicago? nyc?

X - X-Rays: i can’t remember the last time...maybe when my brother hairline fractured my pinky toe when he kicked me.
X - X-Rated Porn: what of it? do i watch it? nope.
X - XZIBIT: what?

Y - Year you were born: 1977
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: is for suckers.

Z - Zoo Animal: i like animals that are not in zoos better.
Z - Zodiac: scorpio
Z - Zippers, buttons, or snaps: i like buttons.
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[Survey # 2]

***Randomy Randomy Survey***

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5'2"

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No. No. No.

3. Do you own a gun?
No.

4. Rehab?
Not me.

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
Um, yeah. But, I’ve only really done that twice and it was a casual thing where the boy’s parents didn’t really know i was dating their son or didn’t care.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
they’re pretty gross but i still eat them on rare occasions. i like chili dogs...especially at adventureland.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
the song from the charlie brown christmas special

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
water, oj, coffee (but i’m usually too lazy to make it before class)

9. Do you do push-ups?
when forced.

10. Have you ever done ecstacy?
nope. i wanted to though. i don’t think so now. but maybe.

11. Are you vegan?
No.

12. Do you like painkillers?
I’ve never been on them.

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
I have no idea. see below.

14. Do you own a knife?
i have knife earrings. so, i have two....oh, and a bunch of kitchen knives too.

15. Do you have A.D.D?
no.

16. Date Of Birth ?
October 27th 1977.

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
1. I should be doing homework.
2. I wish I could figure my shit out.
3. I need a vacation.

18. Name the last three things you bought:
1. glitter
2. dye
3. sanctuary pizza

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
1. coffee
2. water
3. soda: usually cherry pepsi or orange sunkist
4. oj
5. beer

20. What time did you wake up today?
10:30.

21. Current hair?
i’m growing it out but i want to get it cut. i play with it way too much.

22. Current worry?
finishing school, money

23. Current hate?
what was once waves are now simply ripples

24. Favorite place to be?
anyplace with the people i love

25. Least favorite place to be?
anywhere that's not my bed when i'm exhausted

26. Where would you like to go?
italy, a nice warm beach

27. Do you own slippers?
no

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
don’t ask me these things.

29. Do you burn or tan?
i tan i guess.

30. Last thing you ate?
i’m chewing a piece of orbitz sweet mint gum.

31. Would you be a pirate?
until i got tired of saying, “arrgh!” which is never.

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
yesterday at dinner with my mom. i had a killians the size of my head. she had a miller lite the size of her head. we did not finish them.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
anything i have no business attempting to sing...mostly heart, sinead o’conner, journey, etc. and 80s stuff. i mainly sing in my car though.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
everything evil.

35. What's in your pockets right now?
i’m not wearing pants. seriously.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
my last answer, i guess.

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
i only remember my alphabet sesame street sheets. they were a’ight.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
i don’t think i’ve ever really had a super bad injury in my life. i twisted my ankle last year. that’s about it.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
One.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
i had a friend that i don’t see anymore. she was really really really loud.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
uh, myself?

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Not sure. Maybe.

44. Do you wish on stars?
Only the star light star bright first star I see tonight...sometimes.

45. What is your favorite book?
a light in the attic

46. What is your favorite candy?
wonka bars are good.

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
i’m getting married? the humpty dance? no, i believe there will be karaoke. we will sing a painful duet & try to convince everyone at the wedding that we are serious. or not. wait, i’m getting married?

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
3 times a lady.

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
sleeping.

50. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings?
someday i may.

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[Survey #3]

***Silliness with names***

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (your pet and street name) i don't currently have a pet so i'll use the name of my most recent one.
egon burlington

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmothers first name, favorite candy)
Lillian Wonka.

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
K. Cor

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal, name of high school mascot)
Kitten Warrior (nice)

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, the street you grew up on)
Dee Otis

6. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME: (name of opposite sex parent, cell phone Company you use)
Donald Verizon

7. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Cor Kin Ego

8. PORN STAR NAME: (Childhood pet, Mothers maiden name)
Ginger Kinjo.

woo! man, i suck at blogging. when i first started this thing i just assumed i'd spit up some randomness and it would be kinda entertaining for myself and the fortunate (unfortunate?) few who have access to it. but, i've discovered that i just don't have the desire needed to keep up with it. maybe i should have a more exciting life but if i did then i really wouldn't have time to write these things down to share with all y'all. bummerfish. well, i think i need to re-think this whole thing...maybe come up with something that suits me better...because i do like having this space to share but i may be too lazy to talk about myself & my life & everything. it will either be horrifically mundane or entertaining. i'll decide & you'll see, oh yes, you will see...

Sigh. I'm confused.



QUOTE: I dwell in a dark hole that I cannot leave,
and I reach out for a hand to help but it only
gets stepped on

There will be a sad man. He has had pain and feels
like nothing is worth living for. Until he
meets you the angel hes been waiting for. He
would do anything for you because you gave him
a reason to live. He has found love in his
heart and has given all of it to you. He is
very understanding and always willing to help.

It is the kind of romance between a wounded soul
and a beautiful outcast that is nice to
everyone even though they have treated her bad.
She shows him kindness and mercy and love and
he wants to give her something back. But all
she wants is his love. And he gives her that
and more. His love for her is turned into a
necesity and he needs her to live. If she ever
left he would die too.

Nothing can come between you and no one understands
you but you don't care as long as hes there.
And in the end, together is how you both will
end.

***so i took this quiz written by (i hope) a 12-year old girl who is just very deep for her age. i guess it's supposed to tell you what the future holds for you in terms of romance. you should take it for it's name alone.


~As rain cries the tears in your eyes, Who will be the one to wipe them away?~(with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

This kid's nuts.

• My first dfilm movie...it's terrible! Enjoy!

i like ice cream. it tastes good in my mouth. i suck at blogging but i like ice cream. La. La.

I got goalz, jellyfish.

• 43 Things

"Fuck You"
by Haricot Jones

Don't come to me
To cure your itch
You beefwitted rancid
Whorebag bitch
'Cause if you do
I'll dig a ditch
And throw your runty
Garbage ass in it!
FUCK YOU!
FUCK YOU!
May gophers gnaw on your tits
And spiders crawl up your ass
I'd rather have some fun
On this side of my gun
And watch them sew
Your arms back on again
YEE HAW!

Holy shit. That's some deep shit there. Beefwitted? Yeah. Garbage ass? Oh yeah. Gophers? Fuck yeah. I feel it. It's real, you know. Raw. Anyway, so I stumbled upon a website that is just chock-full of fantastically terrible teen angst poetry. It's so wonderfully painful that it takes me back to my good ol' angst-filled days of yesterday. And by yesterday I do mean, uh, Tuesday.


Enjoy another...delicious!

"Anthem For The Disrespected"

Fuck off and die you fucking bastard.
Who the fuck do you think I am?
Someone who's here at your convenience?
If this was a test you'd fail the exam.

If you say you're gonna call
then you call.
Don't play games with me.
I never wanna see you again.

Eat shit asshole.
You creepy coward panty stealing fuck-up.
Die die die.
Fuck off and die.
Die Die fuck off and die.

See that one started off okay and then it got a wee bit hate-filled towards the end. Panty stealing? Yeah, not cool. She's right to tell him to fuck off and die. Repeatedly.

These poems inspire me. I think I'll try one now.
Um....let's see....


"Blackness Within This Soul of Emptiness & Pain"

you. your cold eyes staring through
me.
no recognition. i am something
close enough
to dead
for it to be my new unyielding truth.
the despair washes over me
casading sadness overwhelms me
i no longer feel the blood in my veins
i have no pulse
my heart has stopped.
you have stopped it.
with just one languid look.
how can i exist without...you?
YEE HAW! Gopher tits!

Pretty good, huh? I'm switching my major to English. Creative writing? Yes! Poetry? Yes! Candidate for the Writers' Workshop? Hell yes! I'm all over it, yo.

Gaze into the hypnotic power of Mr. Goat's smiling goat face.
He'll make you happy-happy & put a twinkle in your eye.

ooooooooh! i'm so horrifically excited to have a holiday break for an entire frickin' week next week. i'm just gonna spend a whole day whippin' cupcakes at the wall. fantastic! i don't have any specific plans with the exception of hanging out with my mommykins on thanksgiving. her friend kay is having a big ol' (traditional thanksgiving?) japanese dinner thing that we'll be attending. that should be kinda fun despite the fact that there's going to be a whole lotta of people there that i don't know. i plan on doing a lot of polite smiling. maybe a little inappropriate dance involving the mashed potatoes but not the gravy of course since that'd just be awkward for everybody.

tomorrow i'm going to see the new harry potter movie. it'd better be good or i'm going to burn the theater down. or maybe i'll just bitch for a good five minutes about how it was a sucky suck of a movie and that i was jealous of cedric when he died. yay! potter!

then, i'm going to see a potentially weird show at gabes with some local bands involving some people i used to be involved with in some capacity. it should be something close enough to what it may be like to find yourself in a room with your ex's & how that would most likely be creepily bizarre. but actually it shouldn't be that strange since it's just 2 people & it's been a really long time anyway. besides there's no bad thoughts that i have about them & i wouldn't think that they would have any negative thoughts of me. i don't even consider either one an ex really, just someone i dated for a while. an interesting social experiment i suppose. the music should be a'ight & i've been really dying to see some live music of late. good luck with that, me.

next weekend is the sexual buddha show at the mill. i thought of going but it's more fun to go to those things with darcy and apparently she's been ba-ba-banned from the show by her actual ex who is in the band....along with her other ex who is also in the band. too much information, d? that's all i'll say about that...besides that's silliness & i don't approve.

um, what else? well, i have 5 classes tomorrow and then t-break happiness. yay! maybe some of you should expect drunk karen calls within the next few days. i promise i won't try to rap this time. or sing. actually i can't promise anything...in regards to this anyway. i may call and just make not-so-soothing ocean sounds or i might try to purr at you which would possibility result in puke. just kidding. i don't puke. ever. it's unladylike.

Hmmmm....It's very early in the afternoon & yet I find myself a wee bit drunk after eating a happy lunch & drinking margaritas after class at Mickey's with Darcy. Not entirely sure why I should be blogging after finding myself this way but here I am, type-type-typing away. I found Ellen's recent post about drunk blogging damn near inspirational so maybe that's close enough to a reason to be type-babbling. Sigh. Things are definitely odd right now. I go to my classes for the most part, do what I must do, come home, eat, rest & relax, do homework, and sleep. Sometimes I go out but since the weather's been changing I find myself despising the outdoors with the rain &/or cold &/or windy stuff. Once the snow comes I fear that I will need to drop out of school so that I won't need to venture outside. Is that lazy or am I just particularly susceptible the to waves of hate that accompany the shivering sadness that I become in the winter?
I think that I need a vacation. From Iowa City at least. Ever since I went to New York this summer to visit my friend John, I've been wanting to go back. I'd love to see his neighborhood in the winter which probably strange since I probably wouldn't want to go outside. I miss the rat/asthma playground & Chompy. I miss getting candy from the creepy pimpy clerk whenever I'd go buy 99-cent Arizona canned beverages from that convenience store by the train stop. I miss wandering the city on my own. I miss Chinatown & seeing live eels for sale swimming around little red plastic tubs in the middle of the street. I miss visiting Johnno at Forbidden Planet & his recommending random comic books/graphic novels to me that I most likely will never get around to reading. I miss Coney Island and I wish I had gotten around to spending more time there & visiting Astroland. I don't know. I'm too nostalgic and sentimental. I miss everything all the time. I miss everyone I care about. Then, the people I want most to know that I care about are the ones I'm sometimes least likely to tell. Awwww...sad Christmas.

Rather boring weekend. I went to the Deadwood on Friday. Darcy stopped by on her way to work and we walked there together. Prior to this I was drinking alone in my apartment. Woo hoo! I thought i'd make it a classy evening by jumping on the Boone's train early and see just where it would take me. Apparently to the Deadwood. As usual. It was a bizarro night though. No one that I usually see & like was there so I was just sitting in a big ol' booth by my lonesome crying & drinking my Leinie's Red. I didn't bring my journal so I had very little to do but stare at people I didn't know, the table, the edge of the table, the carpet, and the table again. It sounds entertaining but it wasn't really. Eventually this girl I know came over and sat down. Everything was fine for a while. She's nice enough and we talked about art since she's an artist herself but after she gets a little tipsy she becomes a raging molesting lesbian. I felt like I was in a fucked up afterschool special. I practically had to beat her off of me. Luckily, a table of Darcy's co-workers who weren't working that night decided to help me and invited me to scamper over to their table instead. It ended up being a nice happy thing because I met this guy who's an intermedia student at the university & we talked about photography & good music for the remainder of the night. It's always nice to meet nice people.
Anyway, Saturday I intended on going to the Deadwood for the big karaoke shabangery but it was so rainy and cold that I just didn't feel up to making the trek there. I was up for it on Friday but the cold just makes me want to veg out in front of the television, hugging my space heater. My space heater is my best friend and secret lover come wintertime. And it oscillates. Which makes it more difficult to hug but I do it anyway.
So, Sunday I got caught up on the netflix dvds I'd been neglecting to watch. I got The Lonely Guy which is a Steve Martin film that I'd actually never seen before. It started off really good but towards the end I wasn't very enthusiastic about it very much at all. It was still okay & had some pretty funny moments but it's no The Jerk.
Then, Darcy invited me to go to sushi with some people she knows from work. I wasn't really feeling like going out especially to meet random people since I have my social anxiety tendencies but I went & it turned out to be a really enjoyable evening. Everyone there was really nice & funny & the guy who invited everyone is apparently pretty well off & paid for everybody as well. Really nice. After that I came home, put on my track suit & played with a little cardboard kitty [photo] while watching the Simpsons Halloween Special. La la la.
I think that's the best story I've ever told. This weekend definitely kicked last weekend's ass in no way whatsoever. By the way, thank you again Darcy for throwing my birthday party-thing. It was definitely odd but fantastically entertaining. Thank you! Thank you! And to Sarah for putting up with me & allowing the party in her home as well. And to Scott for traveling all the way from Chicago to be there. It was wonderful to see you. But stop grinding your teeth. It's bad for you.

My friend asked me to do one of these survey things so here it is. You should do it too & send it to me. Or post it if you wish.

[Marital Status]	Single, never married
[Shoe size]	7 & 1/2
[Parents still together]	Divorced
[Siblings]	Older brother
[Pets]	none at present.
FAVORITES
[Color]	Blue-violet
[Number]	7, 27
[Animal]	wee kitties
[Drinks]	whiskey, port, beer, hot cocoa
[Soda]	Pepsi, Orange Sunkist, Cherry colas
[Book]	Sideways Stories from Wayside School, A Light in the Attic
[Flower]	Calla Lilies, Stargazers
DO YOU
[Color your hair?]	yes. I've been almost every color imaginable at some point in my life.
[Twirl your hair?]	not really
[Have tattoos?]	nope
[Have Piercings?]	just my ears
[Cheat on tests/homework?]	not really
[Drink/Smoke?]	yes/no
[Like roller coasters?]	kinda
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]	oh yes. iowa makes me a little sad sometimes.
[Want more piercings?]	yes
[Like cleaning?]	no
[Write in cursive or print?]	it depends. i think i print more i guess.
[Own a web cam?]	nope
[Know how to drive?]	yup
[Own a cell phone?]	yup
[Ever get off the damn computer?]	not really
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?]	almost
[Considered a life of crime?]	i considered it...too much work
[Considered being a hooker?]	of course...too little work (sigh)
[Lied to someone?]	yup
[Been in love?]	yup
[Made out with JUST a friend?]	kinda
[Been in lust?]	oh yes
[Used someone]	probably unfortunately
[Been used?]	probably unfortunately
[Been cheated on?]	not to my knowledge
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]	yup
[Stolen anything?]	yes
[Held a gun]	does the duck hunt gun count?
CURRENTS
[Current clothing]	yes i currently wear them
[Current mood]	a little lazy
[Current taste]	what's that mean?
[What you currently smell like]	a wonderful dream
[Current hair]	pigtails
[Current thing I ought to be doing]	homework
[Current cd in stereo]	michael jackson
[Last book you read]	sputnik sweetheart by Murakami
[Last movie you saw]	The Lonely Guy
[Last thing you ate]	Homemade Veggie Chili
[Last person you talked to on the phone]	my best friend
[Do drugs?]	Today? No.
[Believe there is life on other planets?]	Sure. Why not?
Remember your first love?]	Of course.
[Still love him/her?]	In a way I suppose.
[Read the newspaper?]	yes.
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]	yes.
[Believe in miracles?]	The Amy Grant kind? No.
[Do well in school?]	Usually.
[Wear hats]	Still searching for that perfect one.
[Hate yourself?]	Not usually.
[Have an obsession?]	Kinda.
[Collect anything?]	I used to collect stamps as kid. Now, dust. And rap musk testas.
[Have a best friend?]	Yes. 3.
[Close friends?]	Same as above.
[Like your handwriting?]	I guess.
[Care about looks]	I don't care how other people look...as long as I can see my reflection in their eyes. I can't get enough of me. Me, me, me.
LOVE LIFE
[First crush]	Oooh. Um, a boy in second grade named Cory, I think. His ears stuck out. I found him adorable.
[First kiss]	A guy named Geoff. This was in high school.
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]	Sure.
[Do you believe in "the one?"]	Not really. I think lots of different people can be compatible.
[Are you a tease?]	I don't think so. wink-wink. rowr.
[Too shy to make the first move?]	Usually.
ARE U A
[Daydreamer]	i'm a daydream believer.
[Bitch/Asshole]	not really.
[sarcastic]	oh yes.
[Angel]	no
[Devil]	no
[Shy]	very much. Kajagoogoo shy.
[Talkative]	can be. around my friends & i've heard drunk karen talks a lot.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Happy now, j?

Hiya. Well, here are the Halloween costumes my friend Darcy & I wore this year. Darcy was Lakshmi, the Hindu goddess of wealth and purity. I went all mythological myself as the Domino's Noid. Why? No clue. I'm sick. I guess I've been feeling nostalgic lately and felt like re-visiting the 80s. Oh, and I like pizza. Man, do I like pizza. Unfortunately I was never a fan of the Noid so it's rather odd that I decided that that would be the way to go this year but, meh. I also never particularly liked claymation crap such as those delightful California Raisins with their sunglasses and singing and constant slow-motion twirling so once again, it's kinda weird that I chose him. But, it was enjoyable walking around the city in the costume & kinda funny having the drunk kids yell out "NOID!" at me in the bar or on the street and getting pictures taken with the weirdos. I felt almost famous-ish. Saturday was fun. We went to the Deadwood and participated in the costume contest where I made a total ass of myself by attempting to gain more votes by doing some awesome dance moves including the running man, cabbage patch, & some other moves that shouldn't be done in front of a lot of people on a stage unless you're getting paid. For some reason (meaning a jerk in a Bender costume), I didn't win but I got a sash for Most Enthusiastic Display of Embarrassing Behavior that I made for myself when I got home with duct tape and a Sharpie. Uncool? Doubt it.